One of the delights of my Fall was beginning to connect regularly again with a dear friend.
Every other Thursday I show up to her house with life in full-tilt all around. In the midst of the crazy, we sit and break bread together. We lay our souls bare, and it is easy.
Just before Christmas, I knocked on the door feeling completely empty. It took everything I had just to show up. My energy was being sucked into surviving the season.
I had nothing to offer but two grilled cheese and some truffle oil on potatoes.
She opened the door full of her own exhaustion. The exhaustion that comes from little ones teething, clinging. The exhaustion of preparing to pack her precious family of six into a shoebox for two days on the road to Grandma’s.
She was being poured out to empty.
In the time between comforting a babe and entertaining a princess, we sat down as we always do. We broke our bread and were grace to one another.
We had nothing to offer other than ourselves, which was exactly what we needed. Exhaustion to exhaustion. Brokenness to brokenness.
I realized that often in relationships, even those we hold most dear, we can feel great expectation to be something other than where we are. Brokenness can convince us we have nothing for another.
But most of the time, we just need to show up. On that Thursday in the middle of my exhaustion, I just needed to show up.
My heart is full over the space where we can be broken together. I welcome the grace we can pour over one another because it is only grace that shows up when we are empty.
Let’s keep showing up. Let’s keep knocking on the door and offering the meager loaves we have. It’s an abundance.